i just told my parents about my bulimia. it was more embarrassing and terrifying than i thought it would be, especially because i cry whenever i am slightly embarrassed or sad or anything other than happy :/

but i’m glad i did i guess…i just want to start treatment and be over with this fucking illness that ruined my life.

thoughts?

Me: I’m worried she (a girl i know) has an eating disorder.

Friend: Obviously she doesn’t!

Me: Huh???

Friend: Well if she had an eating disorder she would be deathly skinny, but she’s not! Trust me.

Me: Um actually with some eating disorders people have super normal weights. *thinks, ‘trust me, little do you know i have an eating disorder’*

Friend: *rolls eyes* i guess you don’t know a lot about eating disorders then.

so well. really. like a couple days without purging at all (it was because i had a bad cold though). i was so proud. because that hasn’t happened since my eating disorder began. then i fell right back into my habits again after a day of gloriously good behavior. im telling my parents this sunday night…wish me luck

I am going to tell my parents about my bulimia. I don’t care if they understand or not, I want this to be OVER so I can get on with my life without self-hate and abusing my body. that doesn’t mean I’m not shaking with fear right now… any advice?

i feel like i am two separate people. My bulimia self is this vicious pessimistic a-hole who is always depressed. When i in school/with my friends (away from temptation) i act bubbly, energetic, happy, smiley, and crazy. does anyone know what i mean???

starving-secret:

again, anyone with an eating disorder needs to watch this. 

girlgrowingsmall:

Oh hey, it’s those things I made.

prettywildthin:

healthyyme:

nutrientnatalie:

berryhealthy:

not even going to lie i cried watching his marathon video! i haven’t watched his videos in so long so when this came up on my dash the other day i was like WHAAAAT SAME PERSON?! so inspirational.

I haven’t watched his videos recently, but I remember when he was first trying to lose weight. So inspirational!

I LOVE SHAY SO MUCH. So proud of him <33 

loveeee him and the shaytards! prob gonna go watch his marathon video and cry now haha

words cannot describe how much shay inspires me <3 i’m so proud of him!!!!